& please. Be still and be silent
2010-08-30, 1:55 a.m.

I wasn't asking for an open door. I was stating the obvious. You were closed off to me years ago. I saw that, and I felt it. A lot of things I didn't appreciate yet you asked for reasons in why I did the things I did. You never apologize. I remember that, too.

I don't really want anything from you.

I wish it was easy to walk away from you, as it has been for me with other people.

I never saw what I wanted to see. I saw what was there. I knew the things you had said, and had never forgot them. Yet somewhere, somehow along the way, there were sanctions placed against me. I did not knowingly place them there myself.

You want me to say things that address the past and I don't. I just don't.

If you're as done as you say, then stop writng in reference to anything I say.

All it does it leave room for one more thing. And I am positive that you are done. So, let's be mutual about it. Walk away, and close off everything you ever remember about me.

I love you and whether you believe it or not is upon you. I don't have to explain myself. What we shared is exactly that. I realize that I cannot be your friend. There's too much turmoil.
So, therefore, I won't come to you, and I won't have to give you a reason to come looking for anything.

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