SG:

I know nothing deep or extreme about your life; only the tiniest of fragments of presumptions I sequester each time I read your updates. I don't indepthly know you although I wish I knew you personally, and well. I could never intrude on you, however I would always be available with a listening ear and a shoulder (if needed)

Over the past 7 months, since I ended my friendship with Leticia I've taken notice that my emotional life isn't near as hectic, but sometimes wish I knew what was going on in hers; yet I want nothing to do with her.

I didn't notice the way I always caved and was too afraid to confront things in conversation. I didn't notice much other than I wanted to make her happy, because her happiness became mine.

I didn't realize until a few months ago just how much I allowed her words to her control me. I didn't because I was happy in that sadness I had encased myself in. Her sadness became mine and so on, and so forth.

I do notice, now, that with Amy everything holds its own meaning and I never question it. I just confront things and talk to her. I never did that in any other friendship, or relationship. Its nice. Its benefitting. And its comfortable. Yet I won't allow myself to become too adjusted to the comfort because I'm afraid of getting hurt.

My life holds a pale existance to yours. So, I just love for the love because I love her, and keep on holding on.
My life is good this way...

Oh, and by the by, I know you already know this but no one deserves pain. Not even you. We have faults, we make mistakes and our heart aches because of them; that doesn't warrant deserving pain. Or as you say, "..deserving worse." You just don't. Your pain and aching is what you make of it. If misery is your safety of comfort, then it is what it is.

So, whatever you decide you're doing for the sake of why you're doing it, its not for me to question. Just know I will steadily stand by you.

That's what friends do.